Monday, 21 July 2014

There....And Back Again

I have been asked many questions in the past couple of weeks since being back in the Motherland, the chief of them being "Aren't you happy to be back?" The answer being, quite frankly, no. No, I am not happy to be back in Canada. I am happy to see my family and friends again, but I am not particularly overjoyed to be back. Though, do rest assured that I am becoming more and more content with my lot and I know that it was the right decision and that this is where God wants me to be right now; but that doesn't mean I have to be happy about it. To be honest, it feels a bit like someone died; the end of an era.

I miss rolling hills outside Barcaple. I miss the country lanes. And, of course, I miss the people. They weren't just friends, they were family. And still are. But being an ocean apart and a five hour time change from them is more lamesauce than I could have possibly guessed.

I feel lost and out of the loop and so I sit and wait for Uni to start so I can distract myself with a little more ease. But I have things to do, and for awhile it seemed like I just couldn't manage to get my life sorted. Now, I've finally got all my things in my new place and am all unpacked. I can finish getting OSAP things sorted this week and then it's just getting a phone and a vehicle that I really need to do.

But it hasn't all been bad.

My brother, Nick, got married and that was super fantastic. I got to wear a brilliant dress and see highschool friends I haven't seen in forever.

I got to hang out with my sister, Christina, and do things like shop, play video games, and generally just laze about.

I got to move in with Angelina which has been amazeblankets.

And, of course, I have been able to play with my nieces and nephews. They are adorable.

But these don't out weigh the pain of leaving, but they do help to soften it a little. Which helps. And skype helps.

Honestly, I just want Uni to start so I can get back to school and back to learning.

But enough moping. Here are some pictures of ma new room!

This was this morning...such a tip



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